"Parting of loving someone is learning to let go"

!LOVESTORIES

{Friday, December 30, 2005}

late night

do you really care?

have you tried?

do you really bother?

or everything back to the same once again?

choices made right?

i wish you understand more at 1:17 am

{Thursday, December 29, 2005}

rainy, bright afternoon with the smell of the soil
love the smell, so close to the earth

xmas was pretty much okay
stoned @ sheena hse while the older ones played mahjong till late
mood swing again, perhapes i was pretty bored
no drinks for me

meant to give a surprise to the boy
everything messed up, emotions messed up
abrupt end to e call
grrr....
but still went to his hse at 2am in e morning
wahaha
weird people do weird things
-sigh-
ho ho ho

officially burnt again in my bank account
indirectly became a "revolving" fund for the $200 birthday vouchers for zijun & cindy
haven got back e $ yet
still have to pay SGD400 to my colleague for changing RM900 for me
sobs.. perhapes ask my sis for help first
*laughs*

my teeth are hurting great deal now with soft & also kinda swollen gums
extracted 4 tooth! 2 up, 2 bottom
i pespire so much that i thought i would soak my berms
n i also nearly died from the anxiety build from e previous few days
mummy dun wan acc me at e very last min
cause she said i gave her a bad experience when i was much younger
haha!
daddy acc me instead
mouth was swollen like pig nose from the anaesthetic
horrible feeling when MR DEMON took e pliers like thingy and clamped onto ur teeth and begins pulling side to side n finally "POOFED"!!
out it comes
* i nearly melted into the dental chair*

GRRR... Goosebumps jus by thinking back
now due to e space available for movements, e neighbouring tooth shifted like nobody business causing great pain
slept less than 5 hrs last nite
n i kept thinking bout the CLU CLU LAND game i played late into e nite
-gosh- childhood memories

heard uncle getting better n im happy jus by hearing it
its jus so sad to see him in this state
sobs

YEA!!! KL TOMORROW!
with him most importantly
hope i enjoy e trip!

okiedoo... long post today i hope?
=) *GriNz*

i wish you understand more at 4:02 pm

{Tuesday, December 20, 2005}

ulceration in the mouth
swollen gums
pain
chewing have been a chore
all bcos of the seperators & e banding
i think its e perfect time for me to go on diet..
i will die of starvation before i cld finish my food
eatg porridge can take me up to a full hour of lunch time... -sobs-
aint looking fwd to the extractions of 4!
difficult procedure i heard
cos its crowded

last nite trg was fine
aching as usual now
beep test coming soon
i d.r.e.a.d it

on another note..
looking fwd to my m'sia trip with him & colleagues
=)
haven change $ yet but its okay..
no rush

had a nice chatty with the boy ytd nite
got me past the long long journey home alone..

cook cook kie is backy frm thailand
more outings with her n e pies..
haa!

i wish you understand more at 3:07 pm

{Saturday, December 17, 2005}

half day took work, time off to meet sheena & cindy for shopping
quick dental visit for seperators
hurts great deal now
chew = pain
throbbing pain in the gums

shopping aint great
kinda wasted time
got no stuffs for x'mas exchange at all
walked the whole day, whole town area
met siblings
got my stuffs fast & happy
spent quite an amount ytd
spent for bro, for sis, for frens
treat on me at pepper lunch for bro
for myself? - no
got myself a short instead, supposed to b x'mas present for sis, instead she got it for me. -.-

im looking for GOOFY character stuffs, notify me if u noe.. =)
pls note its not pluto!
goofy talks, pluto doesnt
goofy all alone, pluto belongs to mickey
but both are clumsy in their ways
haa

11 plus, desserts at NYDC with sibs
out of mushroom monsters as usual
grrrr.. i will burn them dwn one day... haa!

home for mahjong at 2am in e morning!
beat that

haa

i wish you understand more at 1:35 pm

{Thursday, December 15, 2005}

attended 1st nat training taken by dear mr. ronnie ytd...

hell for me since i haven been running AT ALL for 2 months..

fats juggling ard..

couldnt catch up with the 5 rounds warm up

panting like mad woman after that

legs soft like jelly, literally

sobs.. so demoralised..

no stretching and went straights into sprints and agility drills etc..

t.o.r.t.u.r.e

..went basic.. mini attack & defence.. stick work drills..

aft whole trg ended, fatherly ronnie said more to come cause wat we did was only warm up.

no fitness trg was added ytd nite

i wanted to faint rite on the spot

i wanted to run away and never come back to hockey

YES I CAN! haha.. mus have hope..

H.O.P.E

so demoralised...

no one to talk to

sudden mood flactuation

*sobs*

i wish you understand more at 11:43 am

{Wednesday, December 14, 2005}

hmm..
now i realise im too lazy to have a blog.. =D

recaps for these few days if i can still rem..

9th Dec

Mahjong @ sheena hse before heading to dbl O
Lost abit and made "enemy" with sheena & xl fren.. hahaaa..
dbl O with part of humble-piers
after which off to Desire
was sucha a tiring nite for the girl
made to dance when you have no idea how to...
-sigh-

nicey Mr RobinA sent us home in his "flying" van

10th Dec

Back to sheena hse to stay and slept till next day 12pm
slack at her hse before heading dwn town for some window shopping (<--for me)
sucha big lightbulb for sheena & dear.. wat to do... mine not ard. =D

Desserts was on SHEENA! yea!.... its been a long time since i went bakezinn...

11th Dec

sat... sat... sat.. cant think wat i did.. hmmm... memory loss...
woopss.. dumb dumb me.. 11th was a sunday! =S
wanted to go pray pray but ended up at home.
sleepy day
went out for lunch with sis & mum
came hme to babysit while the rest went out
poor me.. but no one asked me out too.. haa

tts e end of my precious sunday!

12th Dec

Boring, slow & long day @ work
Counting dwn to nat training <-- dreading it actually cause haven been running for 2 months!!
went home early and went to pray at a nearby temple

Came home stone..
Started mj-ing with my sis, bro n mum..
slept super late but i still won $50 !! heh heh

13th Dec

cldnt bring myself up... wanted to take leave but scared mummy scold me.. HAHA...
Played too much mj then dun go work.. lol
back at work to stare at mice & rats..
Animals handling course was on-going and i have to go dwn n help with the teachings....
but my mood was very good... =)

cause i took half day leave!! =)
going out with dear cause he took leave too!
early morning and he went sim lim to get his iriver..
*envious*
But i have my ipod too.. hehe...

met him at clementi, travel to SIM to hand in some docs....
finally went to the bukit timah to try the fried kway teow. -nothing special-

with a full stomach and glaring sun, both of us walked quite a distance to take a bus dwn to people'park
missed 1 stop is okay! but what can u do when the bus driver missed his 2nd stop!!!!!

Grr... was pissed cause the weather was so HOT!
sobs.. but was glad he made it a very nice walk there =)

borke my lenses and hence went to get a spec..
and he beared all the cost
initial 300 plus..
lady cut to 300..
before payment, she looked at me and said 280, cause like too ex for me.
wahahaha.....!!! =D

early xmas prezzie from him.. THANKS!
After specs making, he got his contacts lenses too.. *preety preeeety boy* =)

went to golden mile complex to get 1 more bus tix for the boy.
he gg up to KL with me for 3 days 2 nite. Hope the hotel cfm the room with me fast..
*xiu looking fwd to KL with the boy*

It rained heavily but stopped soon after.. Drenched, wet, sticky and yet still feeling warm.
humid air in sg. wat to do?

had dinner at the market and home sweet home..
the boy's home
aunties, cuzzies & grandpa was there.
awkward e word for me
hid in his room till 10 plus (fell asleep more like it)
parents home & the boy sent me home..
weet~!!!

happy happy happy happy day

i wish you understand more at 2:44 pm

{Friday, December 09, 2005}

[music playing in the background while i typed on my noisy keyboard]

looking after the office all alone today....
my other lab officers are dwn at the other side for the Animal Handling Course.. Inexperienced me cant do much teachings to those learning...
i jus hope nobody will be here to ask for drugs, keys etc.. =S

Stress stress stress is the girl all alone.. Haha.. After all, im still QUITE new at the job..
*stomach Growls @ this moment*
Must be the cold environment and all the work alone making me so over-worked and therefore feeling so miserably hungry.

The hot tea colleague got for me is left sitting there cold... sobs....
No time to drink at all... Wasted..
Heck is the word..

HmMM.. recap on ytd..
Rushed off at 6 to meet lovely cook on bus 95. Haa~
Got a lovely x'mas ball from her..
After which is to Holland V to meet leon for dinner.. had Katong LAksa While e other 2 had nasi lemak.
Settlerscafe was packed,full house
Poor us settled for Breko instead.
Bought cards and played till the late-coming ppl arrives...
Sheena, kel, rob & gf.. =)

Nice chit chat session we had and i was made fun of.. Usual..
Charted flight, scheduled and cancelled flight of SIA speculation went round..

sobs...

i wish you understand more at 12:19 pm

{Thursday, December 08, 2005}

Whee.....! finally got it going.. But she guess she will keep it a low profile thingy... =) But the girl doesnt think anyone will be interested in her life though.. heh..

the girl came across this blogskin and kinda like it cause it reflects what she dreaded - growing up. Haa~!

November wasnt a good month
She made a major decision but it hits right back at her
She couldnt let go for she care and still habour a hope
Having her "holiday" now for both to relax and come back re-energize for a longer journey
She secretly prays it will works
*she pray.... n hopes she will never have that chance to give it all up*

OOooOoo.... Btw, the girl went to the dentist ytd...
Till now.. she had already burnt a BIG BIG hole in her SMALL SMALL pocket...
$715!!! and more to come...
The Big Question MArk Coming in~!!!
Haahaa.. She going for braces and from what she estimated..
The earliest she can put on her braces will be year 2006 Jan/Feb...

She never knew she got wisdom tooth though!
And the dentist told her she had 3 fully grown wisdom tooth at the bone there..
Hasnt Grown out yet, not in the near future...
WAHAHA... So..... She has some "wisdom" in her after all. *laughS*

But the sad and scary part is, she have to extract 4 tooth!!! *sobs*
One thing bothers her though..
Will it affect her playing hockey..
She will fear the hockey ball even more.. *laughs*
all the best to her then!! =)

Chuan Dao Qiao Tou, Zi Ran Zhi*

i wish you understand more at 12:36 pm