"Parting of loving someone is learning to let go"

!LOVESTORIES

{Friday, April 28, 2006}

what is it like when you stopped doing

or rather...

going to end it?

1. something which you may have passionately chased after and once loved so much?

2. something which may have taken up almost a decade of your life in which you have competitively participated in?

3. something which may become so integrated into your daily routine and losing it means a HUGE part of your life is ripped away from your life journey....

do u feel lost or relived that u will have much more time to urself and the things, the people around you?

n u get to live ur life in another kind of timezone and lifestyle?

*shrugs*
what say u?

i wish you understand more at 12:38 pm

{Sunday, April 23, 2006}

One day, there was a blind man sitting on the
steps of a
building with a hat by his feet and a sign that
read: "I am
blind, please help."

A man was walking by and stopped to observe. He
saw that the
blind man had only a few coins in his hat. He
dropped in some
money and, without asking for permission, took the
sign and
rewrote it.

He returned the sign to the blind man and left.
That afternoon
the man returned to the blind man and noticed that
his hat was
full of bills and coins.

The blind man recognized his footsteps and asked
if it was he
who had rewritten his sign and wanted to know what
he had
written on it.

The man responded: "Nothing that was not true. I
just wrote
the message a little differently." He smiled and
went on his
way.

The new sign read: "Today is Spring and I cannot
see it."

Moral of story:

Do Not Take Little Things For Granted!

i wish you understand more at 4:26 pm

{Friday, April 21, 2006}

im on another day of MC... MC queen for e week..
2 days MC on tues and wed was jus aint enough.. hee....
throat is killing me now, tremendous pain... its jus like having ulcers on the whole throat. Not forgetting the few uclers inside my mouth... And 1 even causes my lip to be swollen! Now my mum suspect it may be the HFMD wor.. lol.. but i doubt so la.. i thought it only happens in young children?

WTH, im on antibiotics, painkiller, gastric pills now, topping up with tues med of piriton (those yellow yellow pills, rem?), panadol, cough syrup as well as Danzen (reduce swelling of the throat)....

*whew* what a truckload. im gonna have a hard time swollowing all.. Geee... i hate to see doc!

HFMD = Hand, Foot, Mouth Disease

i wish you understand more at 12:08 pm

A man feared his wife wasn't hearing as well as she used to and he thought
she might need a hearing aid. Not quite sure how to approach her, he called the family Doctor to discuss the problem. The Doctor told him there is a simple informal test the husband could perform to give the Doctor a better idea about her hearing loss.

Here's what you do," said the Doctor, "stand about 40 feet away from her, and in a normal conversational speaking tone see if she hears you. If not, go to 30 feet, then 20 feet, and s o on until! you get a response."

That evening, the wife is in the kitchen cooking dinner, and he was in the den. He says to himself, "I'm about 40 feet away, let's see what happens." Then in a normal tone he asks, 'Honey, what's for dinner?"

No response.
So the husband moves to closer to the kitchen, about 30 feet from his wife and repeats, "Honey, what's for dinner?"

Still no response.
Next he moves into the dining room where he is about 20 feet from his wife and asks, Honey what's for dinner?"

Again he gets no response so,

He walks up to the kitchen door, about 10 feet away. "Honey, what's or dinner?"

Again there is no response.

So he walks right up behind her. "Honey, what's for dinner?"

"James, for the FIFTH time I've said, CHICKEN!"

Moral of the story:
The problem may not lie in others but us..!

i wish you understand more at 12:05 pm

{Saturday, April 15, 2006}

Dear Miss Chu

APPLICATION FOR ADMISSION TO NANYANG TECHNOLOGICAL UNIVERSITY IN ACADEMIC YEAR 2006-07

Thank you for your application and your interest in studying at our university.

We appreciate the time and effort you took in applying to us. Each application we received has its merits. With the record number of applications we received this year, competition for limited places has been very strong.

We have reviewed your application thoroughly but regret to inform you that you have not been sucessful in your application. We assure you that the University Selection Committee had considered your application to the fullest extent before arriving at this difficult decision.

With best wishes,

blah blah blah blah blah

*pui*

i wish you understand more at 11:29 pm

{Friday, April 14, 2006}

i have decided to give it another try... n i hope something really good will come out of this..

was sleeping till 3 in the afternoon with countless of waking up due to 1) super loud those opera singing tv programme 2) super loud yakking in the living room and the worst 3) to have a full of energy young kid trying to wake you up by poking her little finger into your eyes and touching your face......
enuff was enuff, so i decided to switch room and sleep. Locked the door and on the music.. hee... and i forgot something else can wake u too. Your mobile SMS-es... >_<"" wahaha... was woke up by a phonecall

"bouquet" of artificial toy roses.. 11 reds and 1 pink

orea cheesecake cake

lee hwa pendant

2 lee hwa chains.. suasage and beads? *lol*

"stroll" in the park

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update on my NUS & NTU application: i guess i'm rejected by both. =) definately dissappointed but what to do if my result is not good enough? Only myself to blame for. Sooo...... i have decided to try for overseas. Now what i have to do is to get my lazy butt outta home and make a trip down to the agency which my fren recommended. =)
who wan to go with me for studies????? you? you? or you?

n i made my order for papillio!!

payments are made and hope to get it soon~!! =)

now next on list is perhapes some havanas and girlie slip ons... im going crazy.. wahaha!

i wish you understand more at 11:12 pm

{Tuesday, April 11, 2006}

i suppose everyone have encounter some stuffs which they would not wish to think about it deep within them. Getting yourself busy with work, indulge in play, sought the companionship of friends or get yourself involve in a particular activity is perhapes the best way to get yourself temporary relief of the problem itself.

However it will never go away till the day you actually sit down and come out with a solution to it. It may be external help that you have that will pull you out of your predicament. and the next best is within yourself. No matter how much your friends is willing to sit beside you and listen to your problems, you never seems to be fully able to put it into words and go thru the whole thing with them. Firstly, you do not have the energy... Secondly, you do not wish to say too much about it... Thirdly, do you really think they are able to help you?

The best solution to your own problems, perhapes lies within thyself. Yes, friends are important for they are the support of your emotional needs, yet you urself had to have the determination and courage to put the problem to an end yourself. Yes.. all by yourself.

No matter how hard i have tried, it just creeps up to me and hit me right in my face. Just that spilt second that my mind is not engage in any particular thoughts, it is that fast. It jus kicks in and ah-hah... there i go swinging in my office ----- my mood. So sudden that i do not have the time to prepare and i will be going cramping up myself in the small corner and becomes so quiet that i wish i could just burst everything out. Are Cancerian good actors? Cause i think i am, just that my blog invites concerned pals who are out to help me. Thanks for your concern. But i am fine people. =)

Now, little things like missing the bus in the morning can get me cursing and swearing like there is no tommorrow for me. Why cant that f**king driver cldnt even wait for a minute and zoooommmmmmmmm off? I dunno... its just so .... Urgh.. i dunno what to say..

I am afraid to relent again and regret it. Someone told me this... "its kinder to be cruel".

I am very sorry. Really am. What can i say or do to make you believe that i was true all along? Its aint good on my side too you know?

Xiu Currently listening to Jay's album - Jie Kou & An Jing. Kinda old songs.....

i wish you understand more at 11:02 pm

{Monday, April 10, 2006}

im losing it..
i guess im really am..

deep thoughts these few days especially.. something which i once thought i could change and hang on. I guess that belief is no longer there. someone got to make a decision n i guess it fell on me. It takes me a million NO, alot of courage and alot of heart break plus guilt to end up at this junction.

You are right. And i am kinda surprised that you knew it all along yet kept so quiet about it. Nope, not once at all, the closeness.. not at all.. It wasnt a short period and yet it could not be build up. It meant something. Definately do...

I am sorry. really am. But i guess i have no more energy - physical & mentally, to move on. Do not hate me and i am sorry. No other reason, its just purely me.

i felt so cheap..

i wish you understand more at 11:52 am

{Saturday, April 01, 2006}

update since im awake at this time of the day and on a weekend somemore..
just came back from an early wee morning errand with my mum.. Gosh~ tiring! considering i only slept for 3-4 hrs.

Just gone thru some blog hopping and seen something which i do not wish to see. Something happened during some phase of my life which resulted the lost of some childish shit aka so called "friend". Undeniably i do browse thru her blog occassionally and today i saw some shit she wrote. I guess i was the one being mentioned as SOMEONE she doesnt wish to see. It was something so bad for her, worst! grrr... like my day wasnt spoilt by someone so NARROW-minded and fulled of plain stupidity. thing happened so long ago plus she so happily attached and it wasnt seen to be my fault too..
(p/s: its her loss not wanting to see me cos im so cute and its kinda wasted! WAHAHAHAHHA...)

N thru it.. F**King hell. She got the same job as me somewhere else and so coincidentally, she kust went to make her braces too.. *Sheer bad luck*
Though i wish i would gain back this "friend" coz i really think its a stupid matter to fall out of. But looking at how she behaving. I guess i should not think about it. Anyway, i got so much good friends of high intellectual who can think so much better and behave like a adult.
right? right? my sneaky peepers who peeps here once in awhile to peep at my update. lolz..

anyway, i guess she kinda priviledged to earn a blog entry in my blog! grrr... enuff of her alr. im getting bored. feeling so hungry now! tee-hee-hee.... =D

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i needa new turf shoes....~ its wasnt so bad when just the sole came off. I could simply continue to wear it.... it wasnt so so bad when the sole tore.. I could simply throw in another new insole n continue wearing.... it wasnt so so so so bad when the side of the shoe starts tearing in little holes... just make do la... But its so bad when the nail have to stick out in different little places, cutting my sole.. what if i get tetanus!??! *choy* lucky i got the tetanus jab. Buahahhaha...

come to think of it.. im seriously thinking of giving up. I do not see any point when i only attends it like half an hr, missing the physical etc? and i no longer enjoys gg for it. n it feels like a chore sometimes. grrr..................... Let me go study! mayb its the working part that causing all these thoughts.. lol...

i missing my sneaky peepers.. when are you guys jio-ing me for some mahjong therapy? i will be free next tues & wed nite... wahahahhahahha.. give me a sms ya? =)

toodles...

i wish you understand more at 7:53 am