i suppose everyone have encounter some stuffs which they would not wish to think about it deep within them. Getting yourself busy with work, indulge in play, sought the companionship of friends or get yourself involve in a particular activity is perhapes the best way to get yourself temporary relief of the problem itself.

However it will never go away till the day you actually sit down and come out with a solution to it. It may be external help that you have that will pull you out of your predicament. and the next best is within yourself. No matter how much your friends is willing to sit beside you and listen to your problems, you never seems to be fully able to put it into words and go thru the whole thing with them. Firstly, you do not have the energy... Secondly, you do not wish to say too much about it... Thirdly, do you really think they are able to help you?

The best solution to your own problems, perhapes lies within thyself. Yes, friends are important for they are the support of your emotional needs, yet you urself had to have the determination and courage to put the problem to an end yourself. Yes.. all by yourself.

No matter how hard i have tried, it just creeps up to me and hit me right in my face. Just that spilt second that my mind is not engage in any particular thoughts, it is that fast. It jus kicks in and ah-hah... there i go swinging in my office ----- my mood. So sudden that i do not have the time to prepare and i will be going cramping up myself in the small corner and becomes so quiet that i wish i could just burst everything out. Are Cancerian good actors? Cause i think i am, just that my blog invites concerned pals who are out to help me. Thanks for your concern. But i am fine people. =)

Now, little things like missing the bus in the morning can get me cursing and swearing like there is no tommorrow for me. Why cant that f**king driver cldnt even wait for a minute and zoooommmmmmmmm off? I dunno... its just so .... Urgh.. i dunno what to say..

I am afraid to relent again and regret it. Someone told me this... "its kinder to be cruel".


I am very sorry. Really am. What can i say or do to make you believe that i was true all along? Its aint good on my side too you know?

Xiu Currently listening to Jay's album - Jie Kou & An Jing. Kinda old songs.....