im losing it..
i guess im really am..

deep thoughts these few days especially.. something which i once thought i could change and hang on. I guess that belief is no longer there. someone got to make a decision n i guess it fell on me. It takes me a million NO, alot of courage and alot of heart break plus guilt to end up at this junction.

You are right. And i am kinda surprised that you knew it all along yet kept so quiet about it. Nope, not once at all, the closeness.. not at all.. It wasnt a short period and yet it could not be build up. It meant something. Definately do...

I am sorry. really am. But i guess i have no more energy - physical & mentally, to move on. Do not hate me and i am sorry. No other reason, its just purely me.

i felt so cheap..