my fone died off on me last nite....
n after a night of recharge while i tried so hard to sleep, i was totally ___fill-in-the-blank______ to receive those messages..
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i woke up this morning and while i was lying on bed.. I got this acute sharp pain right in my chest... Which side is the heart arh? ur left? Hmmm.. it felt so painful that it scared me alot alot... Sounded alot like the heart attack syndrome i always heard about... You guys may think that its impossible la. BUt its TURE!!! anyway, i calmed myself dwn and take a deep cough n many many deep breathing etc.
Do you know by taking a deep deep cough, you are actually helping your heart artificially pump?? This is a self help heart attack scenario............... => I wonder izzit related to what happened last night.. -sigh-
Sis hse warming was a success i guess. I was her runner for yesterday! 3 tables of MJ, hse full of people that i got nowhr to sit! supposed to leave ard 630 but ended up leaving at 8! was totally late for alvin's bdae dinner. =) really glad to attend it and was glad that they actually waited for me to start the dinner. 8 other people waiting for me. Its nice to have these friends...
We all paid a certain amount and the rest was put as "angbao" money for him.
Marina Sq was the next stop... the girls went for the arcade while the guys went for their pool..
It was nice catching up with ting. i dunno why, its just felt so comfortable with her around ever since secondary school. I can be totally frank with her....
We re-lived our secondary & working acarde life. HAHA... I still loses to her though in the shooting games etc... HAHAHAH!! IM THAT LOUSY!
Had a loooong chat with her... She still very sad over her ex-relationship. 3 long years. But unfortunately i gotta go since it was really late. But cant help seeing her so sad. I guess some stuffs are not meant to be said over the phone nor msn. But something happened and it made me stay again.. Ended up bowling with them! haha.. Another fun thing i liked to play with ting too!! =D we are the "lesbian" couple back in school then! *lauGhs*
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That girl was called a slut...
贱女人... Hahahaahahhahahahahha.... *whoops*
If you were that girl.. how would it feel like?
How would the one who gave birth to her felt like should she know that her daughter was called a slut.
I guess even in the moment of fury and anger and impulsive-ness.. It was still a harsh word to use.
Thats y people often says what said cannot be taken back, what done cannot be undone, what hurt cannot be healed.
Yes... you may think that she hurt you. she betrayed you.. she lied to you... you hated her alot. She just a human at the end of the day. Why cant you stand in her shoe n think? Does it make her feel good being told to do that?
I guess its still no use. she will still be the one at fault cos she doesnt listen to you.. She betrayed you.
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WHEEEEE~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
another 4 more days. I will be outta this sunny homeland!!! dun miss me people..... dun think i will be doing much shopping! unless u can sponser some to ah-xiu fund! her $ all spent on that bloody air ticket.. sobs sobs...
something cropped up. wahahahahahahahh!!!!!
i guess i still could go on for the trip frm 9-14th. I will make the plan on my own, i will make my own way there... even if im alone. Im 22 anyway ppl.... right? I should be more like an adult and no more a child.. i should. I should learn to be independent more. =) i should...
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sometimes i wonder who do i ever lived for? Have i been in a shell all these while? Only to show a mask to everyone?
who is to show me the way?
