i shall endure this painful period.
i shall not and must not cry for i have chosen it to be like this.
everything that threatens to roll down my face are forcefully kept back.
you may not feel so but i really think its fine this way.
i can only tell myself to stay strong and firm.
and next year is an unpredictable year.
am i to go or to stay?
i have fear in me and there is no longer one that is willing to be there for me.
i really feel like letting it all out now.
its irritating me and suffocating me.
to go or to stay.
urgh
