i got so much thoughts in me that its overflowing outta my "i-know-not-big" (yes yes mr kelly) brain... but somehow, its weird that it kinda dissipates when i tried to put dwn in words.

what is love?
exactly.... anyone?
as time passes.. 1 day to 1 month, 1 month to 1 year and so on...
after so many of the tomorrows... how have the love you had initially evolved?
to something deeper that only you yourself knows?
or to something that even you yourself is unsure?
i have seen so much of break ups using that the feeling have faded, incompatible etc..

[Pardon me for drifting.. my male fren in poly recently broke up with his gf.. and he was so upset over it. He showed his then gf (E) a picture they took when they 1st started. Loving, sweet & smitten no doubt. And he asked E, do you realise now you dun love me as much as last time? And E agreed.. E asked for a break thinking it was unfair to him. And told him to give her some time to think about it. She mentioned that he was the perfect guy for him but yet the feeling had faded.. She is confident to get it back, but she needs time.......

i was surprised.. how did he noe she doesnt love him as much? And how does She knows the feeling had faded? for him, it was E actions & the way she talked to him. For E? i have no idea cos i doesnt know her..

He came to question me wat are the reason one would give to stay apart? My answers at that time was jus some random thoughts.. Such as bored? feeling faded? unhappiness accumulated? etc etc..
He was angry.. real angry with my answers..
How could one say such a irresponsible things such as bored?
And how could one feeling fades? He only knows his was deeper & deeper each passing days.
He say E is going to be the last girl shd she nv to return to him... He will nv be out with another girl anymore... How sad is that gg to be...

My fren.. you are a really sentimental guy. A very nice guy who can makes a girl living in bliss.. Like you say, you may be a boring boyfriend but you will be a very good husband. I trust you with all i have. Cause.. i met someone similar... like you too. =) nevertheless, i wish you happiness and may E comes back to you. ]

Can one's feeling faded cause you have been with this particular person for too long.. That everything that you do and say seems to be a routine. You got bored with it.. You wish to make new people, you wish alot of others too. Unhappiness with him came into the picture.. you quarrel... and you ended it with we are incompatible...
Can?
Or izzit... your love was not deep enough to withstand the obstacle that comes your way? N you wasnt strong enough to walk hand in hand with him & say.. "hey.. i'll stay by u n cross this hurdle with you..."
Can?
Or izzit you are just a fuck up person who wanna try try & have some fun in this r/s...

hais.. im being pessimistic here la.. Hahah.. I think i'll nv make a good gf.
When i was young-ER that time. I often thought how was it possible to face someone so much. Will you end up having nothing to say, nothing to do, nothing to share...? How was it possible for me.. to be with someone else?
I tried finally... in a really unexpected way..
How much i have given to him in this r/s only he knows.. And how much he have given, i noes... N i know its alot alot for him. I thank you from the bottom of my heart..

yes people, i know my nicks on msn is kinda weird recently...
n i definately knows u care for me...(u noe who u are ppl.. =])

But there also some who are super duper KPO that wants to noe what is happening in somebody's else life.. get lost if i really dun wanna say anything.

I shall put a full stop right here & my nick will still be the one full of lyrical mood.. =)
dont probe anymore..... you keep your guesses with you & my answers to myself...

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